Time Marches on

Hey again. So, March never really got better. I mean, in a sense it did, but for the most part it l sucked. My friends weren't making fun of me anymore, or at least it didn't bother me as much, but I still had to live through a week of the musical.

I already told you the story, so this is what wound up happening. I was ignored by all the tech crew, and the boy who was supposed to be helping me lift all the stuff that weighed more than I did, kept disappearing so the actors had to help me (because god forbid Kate and Catie should have to help lift things. It would ruin their popcorn eating time). By closing night though, they'd finally started talking to me again. Although, that might have more to do with the 'kiss' Joe and I had. yeah, umm, during the song "Do you Love me?", my friend Joe and I would act it out, me being Tevye and him being Golde. Well, the last night, he leaned me over and bent down like he was going to kiss me. He didn't, but it sure looked like he did. So, Kate is probably telling all her friends we did and that'll be a new rumor for the rumor mill. Oh well, I do love Joe (not romantically) so it's okay. And he did the same thing to our friend Emily later, so it's alright.

Besides being ignored however, I did have so much fun. Emily taught me the ballet, I got to hang out with Joe (something I haven't been able to do much lately), and I just got to be myself for 5 hours a night. See, I love being part of all the crazy stuff that happens, but I just can't with my best friends because they aren't a part of that world. Oh well.

Friday, we didn't have school, so Emma, Alyson, SoHee, Theresa, and I were planning on going skating, then shopping for a prom dress for Alyson and SoHee. It was just going to be the 5 of us because we really wanted tome to hang out. I haven't gotten a chance to hang out with Theresa and Alyson since 8th grade, so I was really looking forward to it. Well, SoHee invited Becca and Bryan, because she didn't realize a) it was girls only and b) Becca has a mutual disliking with Emma and Theresa. Charlie found out when the two of us walked over to where SoHee, Becca, and Bryan were talking so I felt bad not inviting Charlie, so I'm the one that invited him. Well, it was fun, but there was just so much undercurrents of drama going on, it got awkward at times. We went shopping for a prom dress for Alyson and SoHee, but Emma didn't go because Bryan instead on going. Emma has a weird thing about not going shopping with guys because it's immodest or something. All I can say is, I feel bad for her kids if she doesn't loosen up.

Skipping stuff, the next awful thing was ballet. I love dancing, but I'm not that good at it. Okay, I actually suck big time. The whole 'Spanish dancing gene' completely skipped over me. Well anyways, the new dance instructor said a bunch of weeks ago that she wants the pointe dances to be really clean next year, and that she was going to make a dance class just for people who don't want to be on pointe. Well, come registration time, she recomends where she thinks you should go. She put me in the class for non-pointe people. Advanced ballet 3 it's called. I don't know that just hurt me big time. And maybe I could deal with it since I'd be getting away from this one girl that hates me, excepts I wouldn't be. The dance instructor said that even if you're taking pointe, she wants you to take that class for extra practice. So I'd have to see that girl and know that in her head she's saying "Hah! I'm in pointe class and you're not. Why didn't you just quit?" And I should quit. I'm no good, and I always feel awful, like I'm holding the other girls back. This isn't anything new b the way, I've been thinking of quitting for a few years now. I should have quit this year when our old dance instructor said she was retiring to be with her family. But in her 'closing speech' she said she hoped we all kept dancing because we each had something to offer, but I don't. I guess you can't understand how much this decision is killing me. For 10 years, dancing has been the one thing no one could take away from me. Through the years of wanting my parents to divorce, the years of the divorce, moving, switching schools, it's always been with me. t's like I'm oosing a part of myself, but it hurts to keep dancing. I'm just going to stop here. I can't even see the screen right now...

Okay, so I've calmed down a little bit now. On to the good news. I won $100, Charlie asked me to prom, and Spring Break. We went to Washington D.C. It was pretty fun, except for the first half I kept getting left behind. I finally just completely ignored my family when we went to the zoo. I lost my stepmother's respect, my dad thinks I'm a bitch, and my stepbrother just thinks I'm moody, but I finally got the message across, so the second half was pretty nice.

Oh! And I got a 26 on the ACT, 670 on the Reading SAT, 510 on the Math SAT, and a 600 on the Writing SAT. I'm floored on the reading. I mean, I know I'm good at reading, but I'm in the 92nd percentile in the nation!! I only had 9 wrong apparently. I'm disappointed with myself for the math. I'm int he 48th percentile nationally, and the 19th for my state. Ouch. I'm awful at math, and I just proved it. I mean, average isn't bad, but I don't know. And I'm okay with writting. I could have done so much better on the essay. I got an 8 out of 12. Instead of 5 paragraphs, I only had 4. That's not really a good thing. But, I'm in the 81st percentile nationally, so I guess I should stop complaining, especially since English isn't my first language, Spanish is.

I guess that wraps up March. Thank god that awful month is over with. Not much going on with April so far, but I'll keep you updated. It's going to be eventful. Recital, State Choir Festival, and Prom to end the month off (Litterally. It's the 30th this year). Adios!

P.S. If anyone knows how to do the upside-down exclamation mark, let me know. I've been trying to figure it out for years, and I have no clue. Same with accent marks and tilde's.